23 years ago...

November is a very tough month for me.  I try to use the fall and the holidays to brighten my day.  Unfortunately with the rain we have had I've allowed my mind to go to my dark memories. 

23 years ago next week my mom passed away.   She suffered from asthma as do I and one day had an allergic reaction to aspirin which sent her to the hospital.  Once there she went into cardiac arrest and soon passed on.    Ever since then my  life has been on a constant roller coaster and now that I'm older they are mostly ups but it wasn't always that way but that's a story for another time in the far future.  ;-) 

I have nothing but wonderful memories of my mom.    She was there for every bump, bruise, and skinned knee.  She took me to my dance classes, brushed my long hair, and was always there for a hug. Heck she was even the one who got me my first cabbage patch kid when they were the it toy that Christmas.  The way she raised me is the model I use for raising my daughter.  When I look at her I often wonder if my mother felt the same way.  I know she did.  I only wish A could have met her in person but I feel she already knows her.  She's her guardian angel.   A looks just like her so when I look at her I see my mom everyday.

I miss her...

I love her....